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This may turn out to be a large wall of text, but I just wanted to share my experience here. This post is dedicated to all furs who struggle with depression and other psychological issues, and to a lesser extent furs who have trouble finding where they fit in the fandom. Also, this is a new reddit account, I was woodenshlong before this, not that it really matters anyway. I changed it because I've only ever told one person this story, and I don't tell it lightly.

A little while ago I was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia, and luckily, I went a saw a psychiatrist fairly quickly after developing symptoms. This was around the same time I started actively going onto this sub, as I had just been lurking before then. Although I managed to see someone quickly to try and get a diagnosis and figure out what I needed to do to take care of it, it wasn't quick enough.

It hit me like a freight train. I went from being completely normal (albeit a little stressed) to full on psychosis seemingly overnight. At the time I was working at a humane society, and I had been hearing strange things all morning. I thought nothing of it. Then, as I turned into a doorway, I saw a very tall man in black standing in front of me. He pulled out a gun and I felt him press it against my forehead. Needless to say I was scared shitless. I scrambled out and looked through the door, and no-one was there. This is just one example of the hallucinations/delusions that I was dealing with at the time, as there were many. I never felt safe after that. I made an appointment for next week, thinking I could get through one week before seeing a professional. The symptoms got much worse, and I felt I was constantly in danger. The night before my appointment was the worst yet. I was convinced that the only way to actually be safe was to kill myself. I went into the gunsafe and pulled out my friends 9mil. I loaded a single round into it. I pointed it at my head. I pulled the trigger. It didn't fire. I looked at the round, and even though the hammer hit it, it didn't fire. It was a dud round. I couldn't believe it at the time, and I was so angry, but I kept myself from trying a second time. The next day, I went to the doctor, and we figured out a treatment plan. Finding the right meds alone was a battle. I was still very scared for a while until we figured everything out. But during this time, I spent a lot of time on this subreddit, and trying to be a part of the fandom. I still wanted to kill myself just to make the shadows and voices stop, but whenever the urge rose, I came here. I joined a furry chat, I designed a sona, I commented on art, and I engaged in discussions. Sure enough, we found the right treatment and I became myself again. So I guess what I'm trying to say, as cliche as it sounds, is that it gets better. No matter how trying or scary life seems, it always gets better. Period. There is always going to be a light at the end of the tunnel. I also used to think I wasn't really a part of the fandom because I didn't have a suit, couldn't draw, etc. But I am a part of the fandom, just by being here. If you don't know where you fit into the fandom, it doesn't matter! Just be as involved as you want and everyone here will gladly accept you. I know everyone here accepted me when I really needed it. This fandom means a lot to me now, especially when it got me through my darkest times. This fandom kept me from attempting a second time. So, from the bottom of my fuzzy heart, thank you. Thank you to everyone here (even you lurkers. I know you're there!). You all mean a lot to me and I love you all. I'm here to stay.

What's black, white and red all over? An embarrassed skunk.

curiosity got me, I'm flipping a bali-yo and a bear and sons 114btr until I save up enough for a morpho. I enjoy people's reaction when I'm doing helixes and fanning combos on the bali-yo :p

Hello subreddit! I have been lurking on the subreddit for a year or two and I finally decided to make an account and introduce myself. I have been interested in the fandom for roughly four years after some friends of mine told me to avoid the fandom quite adamantly and quite out of the blue, so I of course became curious and looked it up. I found the con videos enjoyable to watch and I had liked the presence of anthropomorphic characters in media already so I became interested in the fandom. I wanted to make a fursona and got stuck between a wolf and a fox (I eventually chose a wolf) and then later noticed the commonality of some of the sonas and chuckled that I did indeed fall with the norm so I have kept it. My sona is fairly undeveloped though so I cannot give more details on that regard but I can share my interests not explicitly in the community. I have some interest in basically every field of science and engineering and I have also dabbled in many other areas such as, art (2d and 3d digital art), music (vocals and instruments), hand crafts, video editing, and etcetera. I also do enjoy playing video games but most of my play time is preferably cooperative rather than competitive. Some games I have played and enjoyed include Minecraft, Space Engineers, Terraria, Starbound, Portal 1 and 2, Saints row 2-4, Just Cause 2 and Multiplayer Mod, Archeage, Spiral Knights, War Thunder, Heroes and Generals, Elite: Dangerous, and many other titles with some many different genres and I am always looking for new games to try as well as new things to try! In terms of occupation I am currently studying for my computer science degree and hope to eventually get involved in video games, virtual reality, large scale simulations, or something else! So hello everyone! I will probably still be a bit quite though on the subreddit as I am not used to this.